Saturday, June 06, 2009

Ch-Ch-Changes

For some reason I have always hated change and loved comfortable. My family likes to tease me about how much I enjoy being comfortable; mostly because they have memories of me laying on the heater as a child...oh wait and as an adult....ok and using a blow dryer to keep my feet warm in the winter...ok fine also in the summer when the A/C is too high!

But the interesting thing about my disdain for change and my love for comfortable is that I am hardly ever comfortable and I usually end up grateful for change. This past year I experienced a lot of change all at once. A lot of things happened that I didn't expect to happen and I ended up in a place that I wasn't expecting to be in. And yet here I am kind of at the tail end of it now thinking: I am so grateful to be where I am .

I was recently talking to one of the first friends I met when I moved to Vegas almost 3 years ago(wow has it been that long?) and he asked me, "Are you happy?" I said "Yes." He then proceeded to ask what makes me happy right now. I tried to explain this with a list of people, opportunities and blessing. But mostly I realized it is because after a lot of pain I have learned to enjoy the sunlight so much more. I am learning to live in the moment and love the little things. I guess the stretching agony of change is what makes me enjoy the small moments of comfortable.